We have a game this weekend and having served my ban last week (when there was no game - make sense of that) I am able to play. However I am still struggling with my neck. Day to day it is fine but in the contact of rugby, specifically scrummaging, it is not. I feel that I may need to make myself unavailable and this has left me facing a dilemma. Saturday's game is away in Dundee which means a fairly long day out. With assignments due in on Monday this is something that I could do without; the ideal situation being a home game where I pop out, play, and go home to fine tune (already sparkling...not) essays! My dilemma concerns whether if this were a home weekend I would still be considering pulling out. Basically, is my neck as I felt it was on Tuesday night or is that just me trying to make excuses to 'buy' an extra day of study?
I have always, despite some extremely questionable behaviour in the past, been concerned with doing the right thing. Taking days off school I used to worry in case I was faking it and would be glad when the doctor confirmed that there was something wrong! Since becoming a Christian this desire to do the right thing has increased, as I believe it is so essential to our witness that we do not conform to the individualistic standards of the western world, which suggest that if I am busy then I can feign an injury so that I get through what I want to do (note the number of I's in that sentence).
Christ calls us to a different way of living. A way of living that asks not what I can get out but what can I give? Because he gave His all for us and not just I. Tonight I will have to make a call which, if it is not to play, will reflect more than an 'I' motivation. So, we will see...training is just a few hours away.
I feel that you have to consider whether playing rugby is important enough to you to be willing to carry injuries from it for the rest of your life.
I have discomfort every day from a neck injury I got 25 years ago.
Posted by: Jimmy | December 01, 2006 at 11:57 PM