I am going away this weekend. Just not to the originally intended venue.
Whilst I was praying on Saturday morning I had what I think was a word from God on the need to live transparent lives. Although in a given circumstance it could talk quite specifically to an individual or individuals it didn't at the time to me. I wrote it down and got on with the day.
Then yesterday morning something was said to me that gave me cause to think about my plans. Over the afternoon I battled between what I wanted to do and what I felt God was probably asking me to do in light of what was said to me that morning, the word from Saturday morning (which now seemed much more specific to my situation), and the responsibility that I feel has been entrusted to me as a speaker at church. I sought some advice and then discussed it with the other person involved. My overriding feeling was that as someone who feels called to ministry, who is exploring and seeking God's will for that ministry, and as someone with responsibility in the Church, that I needed to make what was, at the human level, going to be a very difficult decision.
As Christians we say that God is number one. We sing that he means more to us than any earthly thing or person. Yesterday I felt that we were challenged to show that in our decision. This is the first time I can really recall such a clear sense of guidance that differs from what I wanted or had planned to do. It was a tough decision. Yet it is one which I am sure it was right to make.
Following God isn't easy. At every turn there are decisions to make, many of which fly in the face of the wisdom of the world. Praise God for his guidance; and for the strength that he gives us to make these tough decisions.